One thing I’ve been realizing lately is that when I am present, and no longer focused on the past, future, hypothetical, caught up in an emotion that only exists because I am giving meaning to it, I am at complete peace and fulfillment. It’s as if I finally realized that all this extra bull**** that was floating around in my head is completely released, like crude oil from a fuel tanker or pus out of a bothersome zit (I apologize for those graphics, but the crude oil bit actually bothers me more.)
The other day, I was really caught up in emotions about what I was doing with my life overall and why had made certain choices about career path, yadda yadda yadda, when I was suddenly struck by the sheer beauty that was the azure sky that was slowly turning a deeper and deeper shade of blue as the sun sett behind the mountains and trees around me. Everything I was fearing and thinking about before suddenly became irrelevant to me. I was simply awestruck at this beauty around me, and was caught in the present moment. I’ve read The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle and listened to many of Allen Watts’ presentations, interview, and soliloquies about the power of thought and living in the moment, but I always felt kind of phony trying to summon up the ability to be present in that moment. However, it was on this night of the azure blue sky that I was kindly brought into the present moment by some mysterious, although welcomed catalyst, this energy, or spirit, even. All of my troubles floated away, because I realized in that moment in the grand scheme of things I really had no troubles-that there was no reason for me to have troubles because the only thing that mattered in that moment was absorbing the natural beauty in front of me.
Now, I wish I could tell you this feeling lasted indefinitely, and I still feel this now. Unfortunately, I have not nearly returned to that feeling of freedom with the complete embrace of the present moment. I have, however, begun to appreciate and recognize when I may be dwelling on aspects of my life that really do me no benefit to dwell on, such as why I had or hadn’t taken actions in the past, or what I should be doing in the future. And it is probably better that I have not continued to live in this sort of pure beauty thinking way. One thing I have been trying to execute more is simply letting things happen naturally, without having to over-think and try to make it happen. It sure does take the stress off of me having to determine how circumstances should unfold. I find, instead, when I simply just do what feels right in the moment, that eventually everything works its way out naturally, and I still feel safe and like myself, only more informed and experienced than I was before.
So, with that, let’s all try to live more in the moment and let things happen-our actions will follow based on what we simply allow rather than control.
In Good Spirits,
Funny Fearful Guy of the Unknown